Saturday, January 7, 2012

1984.

Trust what you hear not what you see... This is what I'm listening to right now.... Can you dig it?




Friday, October 28, 2011

NEW BEGINNINGS.

So, I am not going to make any more promises about how I am about to "start blogging everyday" because that only seems to make my blogging track record that much worse... hahaha. But anyway, my last post was about my birthday and all the changes going on in my life. And I am happy to report that for the first time in months, or years maybe, I am completely in control of my own life and I am at peace about it. I have let go of the sadness, resentment and self-defeating attitude that had been lingering in my subconscious since the dissolution of my marriage. I have been trying to "be" the change that I want to occur in my life... And I finally feel like I am free of the depression, darkness, fear, and guilt that have plagued me for years. It feels like an amazing weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I am on a journey toward self-acceptance, self-improvement, self-discipline, and enlightenment. I am trying to shed my jaded, suspicious, disillusioned approach to reality and rekindle my "joie de vivre." I have felt for some time now, that the older I get, the less I am sure of... So I am finally being honest with myself, for once, in hopes that I can (re)discover my true authentic self as it relates to my core- beliefs, needs, hopes/desires. I am trying to find the balance between doing what is right and living each day to its fullest... Ok. Enough psycho-babble. I am probably not making sense anymore, anyway, lol. But its 2:49 in the morning and that means its bed time for me. I am loving this song by Amanda Palmer of Dresden Dolls:

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Growing Older

My birthday is in three days... As if things were not hard enough already, now I am about to be a year older... This quote by Stanley Kubrick to Playboy magazine pretty much sums up the feeling:

I promise that I am doing my best to overcome this "twilight of the soul." And I will be back to blogging about happy things like vintage fashion, decor, music, and everything crafty... Because those truly are the things that define my everyday life. I don't really understand why I am having such a hard time right now, emotionally. I think it has to do with feelings of disillusionment and a lack of security....

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Change.

Have you ever been faced with a decision in which your mind and heart were at odds with one another? Or perhaps you were in a situation in which you felt as if you were "settling." Not living up to your potential... Or just going through the motions... Maybe you kept quiet because you didn't want to create problems or start drama... Maybe you didn't want to ruffle any feathers or hurt anyone's feelings...  Maybe complacency had taken hold or you had become comfortable in a "routine."  Maybe you were afraid to be alone or just afraid of the self-restraint, discipline, courage etc.that was going to be required to make the necessary change... Maybe you were afraid of failure or history repeating itself... But for whatever reason, you are having trouble doing something that you know you must do... This feeling has encompassed several of the situations in my life lately. Everything around me is changing, and although I know that it is all for the best, I am still struggling with the negative emotions, including sadness and fear.

Loving this right now:



Monday, August 29, 2011

So, I haven't blogged in over a year... I debated about whether or not to continue with this blog or start a new one because so much has happened and so much has changed about my life. And I'm not going to sit here and pretend that everything has been coming up roses, either. In fact, quite the opposite. This past year has left me wondering what else can go wrong with my life... It has been an enduring struggle against depression, medication, a failed marriage, the death of my beloved dog Thelma... And, frankly, no- I am not alright. Yet. But I'm working on it, slowly but surely, one day at a time. And perhaps, the one thing that hasn't changed is my love of vintage. So, I decided to revive this blog, raise it from the ashes like some vampire phoenix, and perhaps, it will be a help to me as I try to rebuild the pieces of my own broken life. I doubt anyone will read it, and I don't much care, because I need to do this for me...


Wednesday, March 10, 2010

SPRING BREAK YA'LL!

Hey! I know it is a relief to everyone that I am still alive! I can't believe that I haven't blogged in over a week! I am really feeling bad about my horrible blogging track record! BUT I do have a good excuse!  I have been at the beach 'cause IT'S SPRING BREAK YA'LL! That's right! No cell phones (ok well maybe not) but bills, no stress, no computers and therefore no blogging... Sorry. But after studying my butt off last week for my midterm exams, I really needed a break! And that is the really great thing about only living 70 miles from the coast!  You can just pop down there for a few days on the spur of the moment if you want to... And I really needed the vacation after the couple months I've had... losing my job and all that. But anyway, its starting to warm back up down here and as I was sitting in the sand in my somewhat faded, slightly tattered Target swimsuit I began thinking... Ya know, this year I really want to find a swimsuit that I really like... A VINTAGE SWIMSUIT. Or vintage inspired rather, because everyone knows those non-lycra things are not ideal for splashing about in... Although they were rather miraculous feats of construction- with all that boning and pleating... Anyway, I want something along these lines:
Isn't it wonderful how perfectly imperfect these women's bodies are? Yet, they are completely comfortable to model in their swimwear. Cellulite and all. No lipsosuctioned, tummy-tucked, fake plastic bimbo's here. Nope, just real women with real confidence... I love it. 
Anyhow, here are a few suits that I have found so far that I like:

Hmmm. I just can't decide! Oh yeah, in other news, I got a Blogging Award! YAY!
I think I am supposed to Blog 7 things about myself and then nominate 7 other blogs to receive the award! 
And I promise I will do that tomorrow!
Because now its almost 2am and I have gots to go to sleep...
bye ya'll.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

FEED YOUR HEAD

So, I have always loved Alice in Wonderland... I love the story and the imagery and imagination that it inspires.  I love how it has touched different generations of people from Lewis Carroll's book to the Disney cartoon and the Jefferson Airplane song Alice's White Rabbit... I fell in love with it as soon as I got my Peter Weever's illustrated copy of the book when I was a kid.
So naturally, I am super excited about the movie... I think that it is going to be visually stunning and I cannot wait!  However, all that being said, I kind of hate it when something catches on in popular culture and all of a sudden its everywhere you turn! And it almost taints it to some degree because it seems that its being exploited for its commercial value... For example, there are the typical:
Alice Photo Shoots:
Alice Art:
Alice Cakes and Cupcakes:
 And Alice Tatoos:
 

But then, there are also those that are simply for profit, like:
Alice Hats:
 Alice watches:
Alice Tea Sets:
Alice Jewelry of all sorts:
 
Alice Makeup and Nail Polish:
Alice Shoes:
Alice Pill Boxes (rather fitting I suppose)
Playing Cards:
Chess Sets:
Embroidered Bags:
Plushies:
Garden Statues:
 SOURCE: WEHEARTIT, THEWHITERABBIT, ZAZZLE
My God! Does it ever end?  Isn't it bad enough that we over-commercialize EVERY major holiday? And now we have to taint a beloved children's story for profit as well?  It makes me feel kind of gross that I actually like some of this stuff... Does anyone see a pattern here? Remember the Where the Wild Things Are manicure?
What's next? 
AIGHHHHHH. Make it stop.
But, I am still really looking forward to the movie!
 ok. enough ranting for now.

Jessica